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I HATE

hate

I think I am officially “an angry person”. I was an angry teenager, that’s for sure, but it’s not a way I would have described myself over the last 10 years. Usually. But for whatever reason, that’s what I am now. I feel genuinely angry at everything, and everyone. I find myself fucking with people and just caring less and less about pretty much everything. It’s a destructive path for sure. Probably self-destructive more than anything. My self-esteem is approaching an all-time low, as is my motivation to help change that. My future is looking pretty dim, thanks to the toxic combination of The Art Institute, University of the Arts, and being poor. But hey, maybe I should just blame myself right? I don’t feel like it’s my fault, but who knows, it probably is. But really… I have this really frightening, overwhelming feeling that is starting to grow inside me. It’s hard to explain. It feels like the only solution to my problems is to squeeze my own head as hard as I can until it explodes with the force of ten atomic bombs. It’s the ultimate helpless frustration. It’s more serious than anyone reading this bullshit will ever understand. I feel like everyone is against me somehow, and they probably are, and it’s probably because I made it happen. I’m rambling, fuck it. Y’know… the suburbs did this. I fucking know it.

And yeah, DDC lost the second round of that World Cafe Live thing. Dave also made quick work of selling out the band at the first sight of conflict involving his new girlfriend of 2 days. Whatever.

ART vs. ART

I moved into this lame apartment at the very end of January, and as of April 9, I have yet to unpack 95% of my art supplies. I haven’t drawn, painted, sewn, or printed a single thing. I worked so hard toward grad school, and had so much riding on that whole thing. When myContinue Reading

Red Tape

On Thursday I had a long meeting with the woman in charge of the undergrad Printmaking/Book Arts program at University of the Arts. It’s official… I have been fucked out of Grad School for the time being. UArts is accredited by Middle States, and The Art Institute is accredited by ACICS. What exactly does thatContinue Reading

The Art of Communication

I had work today, and as I got down the stairs I saw a small scrap of paper on the floor. A small scrap of paper on the floor of a high school is surely not something you’d think would stand out in any particular way, but for some reason I felt compelled to reachContinue Reading

suck

That is a picture of my kid, sucking his thumb. It’s one of the first four still images taken of him/her, ever. It was taken on Thursday, shortly after the last time I posted here. Well had I known that the day would have gone so horribly wrong (which I should have known), I wouldContinue Reading