growing + pains

Tuesday February 26th 2008, 11:38 am

Darwin in mirror

My music. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been working on new songs, and I’ve been working on them completely by myself. I haven’t made the final decision to do it 100% solo just yet, but it is surely the leading option at this point. I know that I don’t play as well as some people, and I sure as hell can’t sing as well as some people, but it feels like a necessary challenge for me at this point. For so long, I’ve been given most of the credit and most of the blame for everything DDC has ever done. For once, I want to feel like it really is all mine. The problem (aside from the fact that it’s really hard to make a record all alone) is Anthony. He’s the only other member of the band at this point, and I just don’t know what to do. I have absolutely no beef with him whatsoever. I don’t want to “fire” him, I don’t have any musical incompatibilities that keep us from working well together, nothing like that. The decision to make this music by myself (if I do choose that) has everything to do with me, and nothing to do with him. I’m sure he’ll understand that, especially since he has lots of other musical projects, but it still feels weird to me.

Bird. My dog is seriously hurting. I fucking HATE when something is wrong with my dog. He’s had a torn MCL and some minor issues in the past, but now he seems to have a serious problem. I think it could be his hip, maybe. Whatever it is, the poor dude can barely walk. When he does manage to get up and move, it’s very slow and obviously painful. Hopefully I can get him to a vet tonight. I really do not want to see him in this condition for very long. =(

Darwin. This kid gets cuter by the day. He’s pretty mobile now, despite the fact that his crawl is still a little unorthodox. I love watching him grow and change every day, but I know that I’ll miss this stage once it’s gone. We’ve been spending a lot more time just romping around on the floor playing together, and it really is just amazing. I could stare at his innocent little face forever. Or like, until he screams or poops or something. =)

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Darwin has autism.

Last week, Darwin had a “full team evaluation” at The Children’s Hospital Of Philadelphia. He met with 4 different therapists and doctors who led him through various tests, engaging him in different ways to evaluate his behavior as it relates to the Autism Spectrum. Today, his mother and I met with the team again to discuss their observations, the diagnosis, and the recommended treatment.

The diagnosis is autism. Point blank, no bones about it. Does an atomic bomb do just as much damage if you see it coming? Yes it does.

Something is up with Darwin

Before Darwin, I’d never spent any considerable time around young children. So once he was born, every day proved to be a new experience, which is still the case. Because of that, I didn’t have a great basis for comparison between him and any other “normal” kid. But once he became slightly more mobile and I started to see him in the context of playing with or near other children, I started to notice differences. Subtle differences maybe, but I saw them. I was told that I was being paranoid, and that he was totally fine.

Yesterday

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September 4th

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September 3rd

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September 1st

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August 29th

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August 27th

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August 26th

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Machete was pretty damn good. Lots of boobs, and Michelle Rodriguez looked awesome.
11:34pm
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Yo Bobby's Burger Palace is crazy.
9:35pm
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Machete screening in West Philly.
6:48pm
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3:31pm
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The thought that I might never get to have a "normal", meaningful conversation with my son really bums me out.
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August 25th

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Oh shit, I just got a DVD and flyer in the mail autographed by Dangerous Toys!
10:52am
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Autism is seriously bumming me out today.
10:09am

August 24th

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I like the Contra album. Whatever!
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August 23rd

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Awesome. My household income just became $0. No pressure.
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See the Statue of Liberty being built • http://t.co/TNVY6bR
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I hear of an album, google it, and illegally DL it in less than 5 minutes. I love the internet!
1:31pm
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Also, Jason McMaster sounded like a crazy Rob Halford/Kind Diamond when he was in Watchtower.
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August 21st

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